Monday, March 24, 2008

Renewal

Yesterday, instead of Easter eggs and the usual huge Italian family Easter feast, I sat in a hospice and held the hand of my dying brother-in-law, knowing that, because I live 2 hours away, I probably won't get to see him again... that when I said goodbye, it WAS goodbye.

I'm not saying any more about that


This morning I sat on the verandah just after sunrise, with breakfast, book and cat, and drank in the [relative] silence along with my chai ... the only sounds were the early birds talking to each other of wormy things and the snuffles of contented [fed] goats.

Easter is about death but also about life, rebirth, renewal and for now my balance is restored.

18 comments:

Sheepish Annie said...

Oh, Susan...I am so very, very sorry. I am glad that you were able to find a peaceful place in all this. ::hugs::

Bells said...

Oh. I'm sorry. This post was deeply touching and I know none of the people involved. Balance is so important and you found a way to restore some under the most difficult of circumstances. That's powerful stuff. Hold onto that.

mehitabel said...

Easter, for our family, has been a time of many deaths and traumas. Last year it was my father-in-law. I hope that your brother-in-law will have a peaceful passing and that your family will be able to honor his memory.
[[hugs]]

Carol said...

{{{{hugs}}}} I have nothing I can say to give you solace as it's all too fresh for me still. But know that there are people that understand.

Tanya Brown said...

I'm wishing for the best for you and your family. Hugs from across the pond -

crazyhaberdasher said...

Thinking of you and the family....big HUGS....

Jane said...

Hugs with love, which along with peace are two wonderful gifts we have........so glad you chose and we able to spend the day in this way. These days are hard, but never regretted.

Jane said...

would help if I read aloud what I wrote...we able is meant to be
were able. Hope all can read meaning beyond the letters...

Jack said...

What a poignant Easter for you. Peace

Rose Red said...

Susan, I'm so sorry for you and your family. I'm very glad you have been able to find some balance in amongst the sadness.

I'm catching up on your posts, so excuse me for all the comments in one spot - love Nadie's hair, your handspun scarf is another beauty of balance, and happy birthday to your son - how wonderful it is to have family.

Anonymous said...

Im sorry for your loss, my deepest sympathies -regards wooliewombat

catsmum said...

He's still hanging on by a thread but it's only a matter of time, WW - it is going to be difficult because, unlike my late hubby, he hasn't been an entirely admirable person so there's a lot to process.

Quilting Diva said...

Watching someone die is a life altering experience.. Hugs..

Jane said...

Can you please send me an email.
I have tried a few that I have for you and am getting returns. I tried to point you to a nice wooly place.
Try these for now
http://www.flickr.com/photos/47702473@N00/

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Lynne said...

consider yourself hugged!

Balance is very important.

Sarah said...

I'm so sorry, but thankful you got to be there to hold his hand.

Doreen said...

I'm so very sorry.

Blessings to you
Doreen